I didn't really realize how far I am with The Lord until my teacher told me things
She said you have to give thanks if you still hear two voices within you when you make a mistake, or sin
That means you still have the Holy Spirit within you, but if you don't then you don't have the Holy Spirit within you....That makes me scared....makes me realized how far I am with the Lord...My Father
I guess the Lord hath called me but I didn't hear, then he called me through my teacher, and now I realized I have to go back to my Father
I'm feeling a bit empty inside without my Father guiding me, without Him accompanying me...
I beg Him to come back and help me through this nightmare, to help me on everything I've done, on everything I've planned, on my study, I wanted to lean on Him, I wanted to follow Him where ever He goes, I don't want to be afraid anymore, I need His guidance in my life, I know I'll never survived by my own, and I really need Him desperately...I know He is listening to all of my prayers, now I'm begging Him to come back and guide me through everyday of my life
I wanted to listen to Him every single day, every single moment
'Cause then I'll know He always by my side, and I'm beside Him, I know He always by my side, but sometimes I left Him and now I don't want to leave Him anymore, I don't want to go away from Him, I wanted to stay with Him forever...I know I can, and I want to purge my soul from all the sins I had commited in the past, I wanted to be a new person in my life, I wanted to leave all the things related to the world, and I want to have a bond that can't be break by anything in this world with my Father, the Lord
I have to purge my heart from all the evil, I know it's going to be hard because the evil will always disturbing the peacefulness in my relationship with the Lord, but I'm sure if I have the faith that relationship won't be easy to be broken, and it can't be broke
