Again?

The devil came again to me and persuade me to commit a suicide....
"Honey nobody loves you here...look at those people, they don't like you, they hate you, they don't even care about you...Why did you care about them....It only will stressed you up" the devil said
"Even if they don't love me, even if they don't like me even if they don't care about me, then what?" I asked
"Don't you get it? Come with me, I would love to have you here with me"
"With you? Where? How?"
"Yes...of course to the paradise where you won't feel sad anymore, it really simple, just follow my instruction then you'll be able to come with me"
"Paradise? Where exactly? Hell?"
"That is harsh....Do I look like someone from hell? I just want you to be happy that's all"
"What should I do?"
"Cut your hand....commit a suicide, then you'll be able to come with me....How's that? You'll be happy I can guarantee....You'll be able to do lots of fun things and nobody will be angry about it..."
"Commit a suicide? No way...."
"Why? They won't be able to hurt you anymore, and you....you can take revenge on those who have hurt you, that's why you'll feel happy"
"I don't want to die yet"
"You won't, your soul will still live...My dear girl....I know that you've been hurt, I know that some one have broken your heart, and that's the reason why I came to see you, I'm here to help you"
On one moment I thought that he might be right....For one second, I feel I want to cut my hand...commit a suicide....Then, a voice inside me cries...Not long after that an angel came, she was sad to see me desperate, she was crying. She told me that she's sad to see me like this, she said that The Lord will be sad if I commit suicide, she told me that The Lord is also sad to see me like this. When I hear that, I feel so rejoice...I really feel that The Lord really know me perfectly, I know that He's always beside me, but sometimes when I feel overwhelmed, and my emotion taking me over, His figure is blurred. Fortunately I have the angels beside me to warn me and remind me of The Lord's figure, and I regret that I had such a thought. Then I ask forgiveness to The Lord, I know He may be hurt because of my thought, but then I know He'll be able to forgive me if I'm truly sorry for what I've thought and did. So I told the devil....
"No....I won't do what you told me...I won't....Because then I'll make The Lord sad....No...." I told the devil
"Ok honey....I understand if you still want to live, I just here to help you, so if you need any of my help, just call me...Or I will come to you...don't worry now my girl" the devil said
Then the angel chased the devil off, I'm so glad the angel came to me and remind me things I once forgot. And I'm so glad she reminds me, because then I'll remember The Lord, His love and the sacrifice He have done for me. I thank The Lord for all He hath given to me.
And so the devil went away, chased by the angel...and so I remember The Lord better.

Today.....

Today a devil came to me and tested me
He says "Look at that man! He hate you! He hate you for what you are, and now what will you do?"
I told him "Why did he hate me? Does he have a reason?"
The devil answer "You don't need a big reason to hate people, all humans are prone to hate other mankind"
"Then what do you want me to do?" I asked the devil
"Why don't you hate him back?" He answer
"Why would I do that for? I don't have any reason to hate him, and maybe if I talk with him then I'll know what is the matter" I said
"Do you think he'll stop hating you?"
"Yes, love can do anything impossible"
"Na-a.... Now my girl you got it wrong, can you eat if you only have love? Can you pay your school fee only by love? You can't, so obciously love can do nothing, while money can give you anything, everything. Now my girl what will you do?"
"Yes you are right about that but there are things money can't buy everything, there are certain things money can't buy, like the people..."
"Now my girl you got it wrong again, money can buy people, everybody will fall once you have money with you, once you are rich then you can buy them...everybody will fall to you once you have money" He said before I could finish my sentence
"Some people will but I know who won't fall for money, and beside money can't buy love, and emotion, it can't buy things you have truly in your heart, only love can move people from their sad stupor, their feeling of hate and every negative feelings in their heart. so basically you can't buy what people feel about you by money but you can move them by your love" I explained
"Honey, you got it wrong if people hate doesn't like you then you can buy them with money..."
"But that's what you think.."
"No honey....look at the world....almost 75 percent of people in the world can be bought by money...let's take a look at a close example, your government can be bribe, that means people can be bought by money, money have all the power in the world, and if you don't like people you could eliminated them by money. Now honey tell me what will you do about that man who hate you? Will you love him or hate him?" he said
"I don't want to hate him, I just want to be someone who can love someone even if that person doesn't like me....I want to be someone fill with joy and love instead of hate"
"My dear girl....maybe you're too young to know the true meaning of money, I will come to you again when the time is right for me to help you understood about that" The devil said and then he disappeared
I am glad for the courage my Lord hath given to me, by the love my Lord hath given to me so I can be storng to face the devil. I thank my Lord for that, because it reminds me of the blessing I already had inside me.