Thankful, Grateful

I am thankful. I am grateful. For everything the Father has done for me. For the simple joys I'm still able to feel, to get from the Father. Such simple joys can be felt from the bottom of your heart when you allow it, when you are meditating, when you are at peace, when you are not complaining. Being grateful is something we have to do, for everything, big or small, old or new. We have to be grateful in every moment you ever lived. I am grateful for the job the Father has given me the opportunity to do. I know it may not be something that I want, but I'm sure the Father is planning something big, I'm sure that by this, the Father is preparing me for something big. I may not be grateful all the time, because I know I sometimes complained, I often got angry at things. I know I shouldn't, I'm sorry that I am. I don't want to fall again, I don't want to get angry again. It's been hard lately, since there's always other humans who are trying my patience. I wonder if I can survive. I need to smile, the Father has given me strength and I need to go on. The Father has sent His angels to protects me, He is guiding me. I have to be strong, I have to keep my Faith. I have to do my best and keep my Faith, for it is what the Father wants.

Peace

How can you know if the peace you feel is going to last? I know that my Father will give me eternal peace, that the angels are the helpers to keep the peace.

Something was on my mind, and still is. I know that the Father taught us to love our enemies. Now I'm thinking and want to ask if we should love the devil because the devil is our enemy. If so I wonder how to do that.

That question is something that only the Father can answer. I hope that I will not be too stubborn when the Father told me what to do. I don't want to fall into the devil's trap.

Right now I am grateful for the Father and the angels. For giving me the strength to carry on. Also I'm begging for the Father's guidance for every little things I do. I know the Father will guide me and mold me into a better person. I really thank Him for that. It is His grace, His mercy.

Back

Sometimes I feel that I'm all alone, even when I know that Father and the Angels are always nearby. They always reminding me of things I might have forgotten. I know that they always remind me not to do the wrong things. I know that every time I'm going to stray away, they're always there to pull me back.

I know I haven't been the best child for my Father, but I really want to be the best for Him. I don't want to disappoint my Father.

The devil has been close to pull me away from my Father, and with the greatest regret I have to admit that sometimes the devil succeeded in pulling me away. But then I try to get close again, I know at that moment the Angels around are trying to pull me back to the Father.

I don't want to stray away again, I know I might not be that strong, and that is why I will need my Father's help on that.

So I beg my Father for mercy, and I pray for His Guidance in my every day life, in my every steps. I know that the Angels will be there to help me and guiding me back to my Father.

Me?

I've been far with the Father, I know that there's no greater Father in the whole wide world beside Him. The Angels always kept me accompanied.
Father always told me and give me what's good for me, it's just the matter of time. I know I've asked for someone to accompanied me for the rest of my life and I thought I found someone. So I asked the Father, if that person's the one for me. Father told me that he's not the one for me. I trust Him, I know He's the only one who know what is right for me, I know that He could see a person well. I trust Him, but my heart's been deceiving me and have been bad. I have to ignore my feelings for I know that the sooner it happened the more pain I'm going to take. I know that Father always watching me no matter how far, how bad the condition is I know that Father always watching over me. I'm glad my Father is good, very good. I know I've been disappointing Him many times. I wanted to repent of everything I've done.
The Angels are telling me not to do something every time I wanted to do something bad. But sometimes the Fallen Angel came and affected me. I know that I shouldn't listen to the Fallen Angel but I'm somehow weak about it. I have to hold my Angel to hold on the grounds I am now. I know that the Angel would like me to repent as the Father would like me to repent. I don't want to be separated from Father, the Lord. I just wanted to be good, not disappointing Him anymore. I know the Angel's going to help me.

Now God?

I been asking myself for a question that might be a stupid one. Am I worth it?
I've been thinking about that thing a lot of times. I know the answer already. But I kept adding a 'what if' question. The worst possible question ever.
My Angel came, sure she did. She told me the answer to all of my question. I know I've been very far again to the Lord, and I regret it. I kept saying I'm sorry to Him and kept feeling guilty and not worth it. This it is the love of the Lord for me, the mercy He gave to me. But the Lord is forgiving and loving Lord. I know that fact. But still I've hurt His feeling and I'm just scared that I've been too much...I've hurt Him too much. Hopefully not. My Angel told me that if I really mean on my apologies and really want to go back to Him, then He shall forgive me. I really grateful of that, really thankful of His mercy and love. The Devil always come, I've thrown him out once and I really need the Lord's streght to do it. Now I hope I could always be strong and faithful to the Lord, and for that I need His strength to make me strong and my angel to keep me faithful to the Lord

The truth

Apparently The Lord is not really far from me, it's just my feelings...God is just teaching me how to be strong, to be an independent kind of person, that's why He have to make me feel like this, He teach me things I really have to learn
The Angels all around me, telling me to be strong for The Lord know my weaknesses and He won't let me down, for He knows what's best for me
I just have to be strong, I have to prepare for everything, and hopefully I can be better person, I can survive all this, be strong and be more mature ^_^

Not Now

I didn't really realize how far I am with The Lord until my teacher told me things
She said you have to give thanks if you still hear two voices within you when you make a mistake, or sin
That means you still have the Holy Spirit within you, but if you don't then you don't have the Holy Spirit within you....That makes me scared....makes me realized how far I am with the Lord...My Father
I guess the Lord hath called me but I didn't hear, then he called me through my teacher, and now I realized I have to go back to my Father
I'm feeling a bit empty inside without my Father guiding me, without Him accompanying me...
I beg Him to come back and help me through this nightmare, to help me on everything I've done, on everything I've planned, on my study, I wanted to lean on Him, I wanted to follow Him where ever He goes, I don't want to be afraid anymore, I need His guidance in my life, I know I'll never survived by my own, and I really need Him desperately...I know He is listening to all of my prayers, now I'm begging Him to come back and guide me through everyday of my life
I wanted to listen to Him every single day, every single moment
'Cause then I'll know He always by my side, and I'm beside Him, I know He always by my side, but sometimes I left Him and now I don't want to leave Him anymore, I don't want to go away from Him, I wanted to stay with Him forever...I know I can, and I want to purge my soul from all the sins I had commited in the past, I wanted to be a new person in my life, I wanted to leave all the things related to the world, and I want to have a bond that can't be break by anything in this world with my Father, the Lord
I have to purge my heart from all the evil, I know it's going to be hard because the evil will always disturbing the peacefulness in my relationship with the Lord, but I'm sure if I have the faith that relationship won't be easy to be broken, and it can't be broke